Writing has been on my agenda of things to do but I just kept pushing it to the side. What could I possibly write about? Life has been so chaotic these past few weeks (let’s face it now, months) and I feel like I’m barely keeping up. I was talking to my friend the other … Continue reading I’m Sad
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Grief has a funny way of sneaking up on you when you least expect it. I recently have really been missing my grandfather; his words, his advice, his kindness. I’m sitting on the train wondering what I should blog about this month and that grief brought me back to something I wrote back in November. … Continue reading My Grandfather’s Hands
I read that caption in a medical record and it couldn’t be more accurate for how I’m feeling about my life right now. This past month has been a slight disaster/ life and death situation. I come out of it feeling like I’ve lost so much; specifically my ovary which contains much of my hope … Continue reading Failure to thrive in adult
Happy August friends! Well Summer 2021 is more than halfway done and I realize I have not posted since the end of June. This summer has been chaotic but I’m finally having some moments of stillness while I’m on vacation. In reflecting I discovered that I have recently had this sudden need to find relevance … Continue reading Time for a Check In
But in this thinking and processing, I’ve been going back and forth between what God was saying and what the culture was saying, and I got caught up. I realized that in this moment I’ve leaned more into my identity as a black woman and less on my identity as a Christian. That was wrong. In my frustration, I’ve posted, texted, and said things in anger that I never knew I had within me.
So I’m one month into my 26th year. To mark the occasion, I subconsciously booked myself an Airbnb (meaning that I didn’t realize that it was one month but I wanted to do it anyway lol). I was literally down the street from where I live with my parents and my sister. I was feeling … Continue reading One month in…
I believe the last time I posted in here was in September. I just finished my AmeriCorps experience and was about to start graduate school. Much uncertainty was occurring in life. I just lost a research opportunity and was so nervous about what grad school would be like. Thank God I got a job a … Continue reading It’s been a while…
Now I’m not strung out and acting crazy, but I would be lying if I said that I’m not a little stuck right now as I’m transitioning into this new life as a graduate student.
As long as we remember that our ministry is to God only, there is no need to stress or worry about the big picture. All that we can do is to pray to God for guidance and take small steps of faith every day trusting that God will make every step clear at the right time.
Confessions of an Enduring Optimist 